So What About You?

You say I am the problem to everything that is going on. That it is me and my personal problems what is stoping us from moving foward with this. But stop and think, could it be you and your atitude whats hurting me? Yes, my problems do affect ME, but they have affected ME for a long time and I have been able to move on and keep going with my life, so why do you have to make ME feel bad about it if maybe it's you the one with a problem. My problems have afected ME but not ever those around ME. Last night you said very hurtful words, you might say as an excuse that youj were intoxicated, but I believe that "drunken words are sobber thoughts" as the refrain goes. I keep my head up high and I will move on, but don't expect me to always be there for you, if when I tried to be a friend to you, I was rejected. You see me as a business, and I see you as a little more then that. You say don't mix business with the personal, and then you say we have nothing personal but just business, make up your mind and let me know what we are. I care about you a lot, and I don't know why. What you do, think and say affects me a lot and I don't know why. I hope everything goes okay, and I hope you find someone else out there but if you do not, don't turn around and expect to see me there. I will see you go as much as that hurts but I just can't keep up with this painful event. I went against my family, believes and values and you didn't apreciate it what's so ever. BUt tha's okay. I will watch you go,and I hope when you realize you are wrong is not too late because if is, I won't be there. I care about you but I also care about myself. Because I love you I am setting you free and if you come back then you belong to me, but if you don't we were never meant to be! <3

Class of 2012

Senior year comes around. After, all that time I have spent thinking on how it would be, on who I would be, what it would be like, and where I would be, it's finally here! Unbelievable how my life has changed from those days when I wished to be a senior at Eagle Rock high. I always thought I would graduate being an eagle, but I have transformed into a storm and even though I did not agree with it at first I know thank God and my mother for making the decision for me. I now thank the destiny for bringing the people in my life who care about me and who have been there when I needed them. I do miss my "LA life" but at the end of the day it is not today what matters most, is all about what we are doing to make tomorrow a better day! We fight to be better then our past and sometimes what we want is not what will stop the cycle from repeating itself. I work hard to make my mother proud and ever though I have to be respoinsible I also want to be a little crazy before my life really gets serious. I want to enjoy the last minutes of childhood even though I am not a child anymore! I hope for a good senior year, fun, happy, exciting, life changing, ad WILD!!! But its not just good things what makes a good year perfect, its the ups and downs, the happiness and sadness, the goodand bad news, it needs to be human and real because it is the last year of experience that we will have to prepare ourself for the real life. In my friends I trust, and I believe we can make this a good year, not a perfect one, but a real one!